Soul?

"Soulful Stewardship: Steering Corporations through Human Governance"

That was the name of the book I was assigned to review. The past 2 weeks I have been carrying the book to n fro but to no avail.. nothing! The speed reading I did had put me on hold of ever reviewing it.

The word soul.. burden me heavily to face the existing world.. the world of secularisme!

soul..
jiwa..
nyawa..
roh..

jiwa itu nafsu..

And last night, I took it out again and tried to read on. Alas, instead I finished all the five books which were not even in the read list urgency. As if the spirit of the books got into me and I just did not want to stop. The time passed by and it was almost 3 in the morning. I had not reviewed the book and I am supposed to submit my report this morning. I did not! There was nothing!

rohani..
jasmani..

The words being said and the understanding is mere "rohani" and "jasmani". I had been saying the words for all the time I could remember but only lately they brought different meaning. Thank Allah Almighty.. kerana dengan limpah kurniaMu.. pengertian itu datang.

Dengan namaMu Ya Allah.. tiada daya dan upaya melainkan dengan pertolonganMu.. here I am.. a one page review of "Soulful Stewardship: Steering Corporations through Human Governance".. human with adab and people with soul..

I remember now.. why I need to really posted MAZA's WWR.. sebagai peringatan untuk diri ini agar berhati-hati dalam penulisan sebegini.

And I also remember.. pesanan Hamzah.. abang nombor 2 ku.. tatkala aku dinaikkan pangkat 12 tahun lalu.. dan beliau menghadiahkan sepasang pen yang begitu mahal dan cantik sekali tulisan daripada pen itu.. kata Hamzah:

"Ingat! Apabila menurunkan tanda tangan atau menulis apa-apapun catatan yang menjadi keputusan.. ingat setiap itu akan dituntut di negeri yang di sana.. negeri akhirat.. benar atau palsu.. terimalah pembalasannya".

I always remember peringatan itu.. but only now it dawned on me. It really does. It also dawn on me.. the pens are just mere things.